With the last ounce of my will, I pressed
inexorably through the swelling mass, swam through the surf of resistance until
I broke through the swirling currents and touched the silky smooth, woolly
fuse. Suddenly, BAM……..EXPLOSION!!!.......
When I look into the mirror, I see the
macabre grin of the skull in its most charming state; reaching it reaches out
to me a pale ghoul with its repulsive beam. My face used to be flushed with
cheeks that were ruddy rose petals, but now they are as ashen as rain doused
embers of coal. I was a robust palm oil fruit which has become a shrivelled
charred kernel. The music I hear these days is the swish of the grim reapers
sickle, the clattering hooves of death’s black steed crashing down the
cobblestones of my soul. I sleep perpetually in the embrace of cold’s chilly
fingers, the only warmth I feel on my pallet being the pillow of my tears. The echoes of silence fill my home, no
children running about, no man to call my husband (He walked). I haven’t been
touched in many years, only loneliness sought, courted and is now betrothed to
me. I used to walk about in a cloud of Chanel NO 5 but now, the odoriferous
smog that dogs my every step is part of what has made me a hermit in the temple
of my solitude. Church doors are barred to me, the law says I am too tainted to
worship. I have needle bites all over my
arms yet I am no junkie, but veno-punctures required for a battery of tests have
drained me like vampires. Angels in all their forms have attended to me, young,
old, black, white, bespectacled, friendly, ornery, name it but none has been
able to heal. Their white coats, a mockery of their shortcoming as their
fingers probe and their speculums explore.
I am continually subjected to the impassive glare and robotic examination
of radio-diagnostic inspectors. My
affliction has made them richer and left me poorer. All my saving and
investments are gone. Recently my breath
comes in short gasps and rattles in my throat with every step. With the most
minimal exertion, weakness soaks every fibre of my being, pampers me in its
sauna and floods me with sweat. The latest report is that my heart is failing. Fat
and back, the ugly worms of suicidal tendencies worm through the rotted wood of
my consciousness, truth is, the burden of living has become too much to bear. I
am on a trajectory of fatality, a derailed train on a mountain pass heading for
an inevitable end. My life is haemorrhaging away, I have a primary issue amongst
all these, a dozen years issue of blood……….Then I heard about Him and there was a twist in my tale. My tragic saga turned into one of hope. He sowed in my heart the seedling of a fairytale…
Our Narrator embodies all our travails and agonies. Life is a hive of issues and they come out stinging like a furious swarm of bees and their anaphylactic shock kills. The memories of terrible nature can also be quite long lasting. We are in a lot of ways similar to this woman, in the sense that issues can be spiritual, physical, financial, emotional, psychological, marital, relational and every other …..al. Hers though primarily physical affected every other area of her live. Issues dog our steps with rapid intensity until we run out of breath. They make one bleed and drain life. Legion in their multiplicity….bills with deadlines, (tuition fees, hospital bills, premiums, rent, mortgage, wedding, etc) lack of jobs, unfeeling creditors, unfaithful partners, divorce, single and lonely, married and lonely, married without issues, battering spouses, mean bosses, loss of loved ones, low self esteem, racial and other kinds of discrimination, chronic debilitating illnesses, addictive habits, PHCN blackouts, terrorists, air crashes, abominable traffic, dismal leadership, separation from God…. issues are a burgeoning list of hopelessness……
I heard about the Galilean on the airwaves on my small transistor radio, the only gadget I now own. He is a miracle worker everyone seems to say and it sparked something within me.
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I started thinking differently; I stopped
seeing death and started seeing life. My
thoughts went from sickness to health. MY
PERSPECTIVE CHANGED!
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My thoughts translated into my
words, I kept saying if I could touch Him, I would be healed. MY WORDS GAVE ME LIFE AND IMPACTED MY
DESTINY!
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My words translated into
action. I STEPPED OUT, went for
broke, put everything on the line. I wasn’t going to sit at home and give up! I
was going to get healed or die trying!
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With the milling throng, it would
be a tall order to reach Him but if I can navigate my way around to just touch
the helm of his garment, I would be cool. I
SAW POSSIBILITIES WITHIN MY CHALLENGES!
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The hem of a garment is almost nonexistent
relative to the whole clothing, it was a connection point. Irrespective of how
diminutive, CONNECTION POINTS ARE VITAL!
I found mine, what is the one you need for your issue? Remember the mustard
seed.
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Fighting through that unruly
crowd was extremely exhausting but I
JUST COULD NEVER GIVE UP!!!!!
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Most times, we wait for God to
touch us, but I decided to touch Him! I
THOUGHT OUT OF THE BOX!!! You can touch him too with your prayer, worship,
praise, gift, time, faith…..what are you waiting for?
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Unclean humanity that I was I
handled spotless divinity which I wasn’t supposed to do. The law strongly says
so, but to live, I BROKE THE NORM!
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MY FAITH WAS STRONGER THAN THE IMPEDING OBSTACLES, both physical and otherwise.
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Loads of folks surrounding the
Man, shoving and pushing, BUT I SINGLED
OUT MYSELF FOR DISTINCTION! That’s the only thing that would make my own
touch unique, what would differentiate me.
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I slowly reached out, painfully
stretched until MY BEING WAS A LIVING
BALL OF CONCENTRATION. All that
mattered at that moment was the hem of his garment; it meant more to me than
the Golden Fleece to Jason and his Argonauts.
I finally touched it, a contact so faint it
seemed it did not happen but……SUDDENLY! EXPLOSION…BAM…I was zapped by a power
beyond my comprehension, Zoe; God’s divine life surged through me and dried my
poisoned well.
I felt like Persephone emerging from Hades
womb into a spring eternal. Every cell of my being sang merrily and laughter
burbled in my spirit. I WAS HEALED but more than that I felt whole. Joy
percolated within me and gave me a heady high rush. The future was not scary
anymore; there was a fresh taste to life.
He called me to Himself. It is actually
true that the eyes are the mirrors of the soul; they were pools of mercy, seas
of kindness merging to form an Atlantic of love. His azure eyes washed me over in a river of
peace.
As I left him that day, all eyes were
fixated on me especially that of one of his disciples. He is quite a hunk, gosh!
My blush has returned. Life is beautiful once again. I skip with gaiety into a
future of possibilities…..
Yet I
hear His voice forever resounding in my tomorrow, telling me the sweetest words
I would ever hear………………
DAUGHTER,
GO IN PEACE, YOUR FAITH HAS MADE YOU WHOLE………………..